Eve Louise Norris

UPDATE - Eve is now a big sister, Isaac is very much like Eve and has very similar expressions -
he's also very cheeky like her too! xx

To all my GTS friends, just to let you know that Eve is going to be a big sister! I am due 5th
August. I miss eve so much but know that she has been looking over me and baby, she would have been
such a good big sister although i'm not sure she would have liked sharing mummy!! Having another
baby has been a tough decision but i feel so blessed to be able to have another chance at being a
mummy, Eve you will always be my number one baby girl, love you so much, mummy xx


Thankyou so much for everyones lovely messages and candles. They really do keep me going. xx


My beautiful daughter Eve Louise Norris was born on Christmas Eve 2003. She was 5lb 3oz and came out
kicking and flaring her nostrils (just like mummy!) I knew from that moment onwards that I would
never love anything more than I did her and that I would do anything in my powers to protect her.
As time passed on and milestones were never reached, I realised Eve had her problems. Although
heartbroken at first, I believed that I could cope with any illness/problem Eve had , the only thing
I couldn't cope with was the thought of losing her. She had various problems eg delayed
development, microcephally, hearing/visually impaired, Gastostomy fed and severe epilepsy. There was
never a diagnosis as to why.

Eve and I made the most of her short life together and she was loved by everyone who ever met her.
Although Eve never smiled she had her own little personality and could certainly get your attention
to tell you what she wanted!! Whether it be a cry, a 'false' cough, a screech, a kick or a loving
glare! For example, it was always very funny when Eve would be in bed on her own, she would have a
'really bad cough' , however when I picked her up and cuddled her or put her in bed with me the
'really bad cough' suddenly disappeared!!! - little monkey!

Eve lived a very 'normal' life and it was very important to me that she was given the same
opportunity as every other little girl her age. She was adored by everyone at her nursery and when
anyone asked about her they always described her as their 'special little girl'. Eve went in the
sea, played on the swings, danced and painted! Her favourite pastimes included being cuddled and
swimming in a heated swimming pool! (not in a cold one like the one on holiday!!!)

Eve was often taken into hospital over a bad seizure or a chest infection and I was often told to
prepare for the worst, but my little girl was a fighter and always pulled through. We were often
home the week later! 'Eve Naughty Norris' was often her nickname over the worry she put me through!

Although I could never contemplate losing her, I did believe that if I did lose her it would be this
way, in hospital. Therefore, the way she did die was very much a shock to us all. Eve had been well
for about four months and we had had a lovely summer together - we even managed to go on holiday
together to Benidorm - some very precious memories.
On the 21st October my brother offered to have Eve for the night to give me a break (he had had her
many times before and had an excellent understanding of her probelms and how to deal with them). Eve
and I had a lovely last day together that day and had lots of cuddles, she was very well. About
6.30pm that night I dropped her off at my brothers. At 10.30pm that night I phoned to see how she
was - all was fine and she was sound asleep.

The next I knew was that I was being woken up by a phone call from my brother saying that he was
sorry and that Eve had gone. I was confused and rushed up to the local hospital. As I arrived
there, my brother and various doctors/nurses were at the door. I knew. I went to see her and picked
her up in my ams to try to wind her. She had gone. The doctors said that she had had a seizure in
her sleep and had died peacefully. Words cannot describe how I felt. There was nothing I, the
ambulance or my brother could have done. I often feel guilty that I was not with her when she died
and also go through the 'what if's?'. However someone eased my pain by saying that she didnt want me
to be there when she left as she didnt want to hurt and panic me.That SHE chose that time to go for
a reason. She always was the one in charge!

I really wanted to take Eve home with me until the funeral and luckily I was able to do this. I
spent 3 very precious days/nights with her before she was finally cremated on the 26th October 2006.
I wrapped her up in her favourite pink blanket and snuggled her up to her teddies and pictures and
placed her in her beautiful white coffin. I gave Eve her last kiss goodbye and told her that I
loved her.

At the crematorium I carried her coffin down and placed it at the front. I felt that as I had
brought her into the world , I wanted to be the last one with her. The service was beautiful. I
recorded a message to everyone at the servive celebrating Eve's life. Corrine Bailey Rae's - 'Just
like a star', 'You are my Sunhine' and 'Somewhere over the Rainbow' were played during the service.
The vicar's last words were , "your little girl is now with the angels in heaven". I felt somewhat
at peace by this.
When we arrived home there was a rainbow over my house - I smiled . Hundreds of people attended
Eve's funeral and I was inundated with cards and kind words from all who knew us. They often stated
that i had given Eve all I could and that she was a very lucky girl. I felt like a very lucky mum in
that I had shared such a precious life.

Eve was my right arm and I miss her so much, we were very much a team. I feel so lost without her. I
have had tremendous support from my friends and family and they are helping me through. I don't know
how I would have reached this stage without them. I can't believe that it is nearly 2 year since she
left me, I dont know where the years has gone. I also can't believe that my little girl would have
been 5 this Christmas! I know for a fact that my nana (who also passed away) will be making sure
that she has the best 'pinkest' party ever in heaven.
Have fun little girl, all my love ^I^ mummy ^i^ xxxxxx